Emotions

That moment when you are full of emotions and stubbornly they don't want to come out, you can't express how you feel because they feel like they are stuck in quick sand and if any word of them is uttered they would start to sink dramatically. Feeling like a cup that is over flowing, but nothing is spilling. Ice frozen around words and no chisel to help release them. Speak them. Needing an X-ray to see through them.
Emotions.
That time when you feel like they don't exist. They were never there to begin with because every time you let a little of them seep out, they are tampered with and never left the same. When you keep trying over and over again, trying to rebuild that part of you that was left for dead. Destroyed so much so that you wanted to create a decoy.
Despair.
Rampantly bouncing of the subconscious of the conscious unable to be obtained. Leaving the body fatigued and drained. Causing the mind to work over time trying to decipher each feeling and the true meaning, but still at the same line for what seems like eternity only seconds have went by.
Despondency.
That instant when you want to scream, but nothing comes out. Kick, but you are paralyzed. Cry, but tear seem to be nonexistent. Trapped in the underlying folds of your subliminal, becoming much more than mental; reaching into your physical, becoming ill because titillation is unreal.
Empathy.
That interval when you stop feeling feelings. The inside of your vessel is empty and bare. Nothing but echo's heard from what use to be your heart. Your soul is null and void and the spirit you had that once was uplifted is now distant. Sucked into your cerebral black hole. Lost in your subjective brumuda triangle never to be felt again..

Melancholy.


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