Unloved

I came to you once and you ignored me
I asked for advice and you scolded me
I told you I needed you and you laughed in my face
How long do I have to embrace this feeling of hatred seething
From the look in your eyes.
The curl in you lip.

Your stare is titillating, burning fire into my soul
Yet leaving my body numb and cold.
Some days it's like you want me around
To joke and laugh, but only at my expense
So I tip toe around you...I ride the fence.

I've been emotionally abused by you...
In the sense you never showed me any
I tried to gain you attention
But never did you mention
Or acknowledge me...
My out cries are still left unheard

How can I forget this pain?
This unknown shame that I caused
That's the only thing it has to be
Because you never uttered the four letter word
Starting in L and ending in E...
Every morning I wait hoping for a change, at the end of the day it's left the same

I would glance at you every once in a while, to only be welcomed
by a frown, a look of disgust
an assortment of words, mostly were cursed.
All I ever wanted was a hug
Instead I was pushed
Maybe just a kiss? No that would have been too much.

How can I forget this pain?
This unknown shame that I caused
That's the only thing it has to be
Because you never uttered the four letter word
Starting in L and ending in E...
Every morning I wait hoping for a change, at the end of the day it's left the same

Exhausted to the point where I don't want to wake up
Hurting so much I can't deal anymore
Done begging
Finished crying
At the end of my rope with trying..
One last effort..

Again destroyed
Emptiness in my heart
Is growing a bigger void..
And no one to talk to...

Who needs enemies...

With Family like you..

Lady R © 2013