Drifting On A Memory
Drifting on a memory...
Cloud nine is where I use to be
Singing songs to the melody that plays
Quietly in my head..
The words of "Let me love you"
Being whispered softly in my ear
Telling me I have nothing to fear
To let my guard down so that ou can surround me
With the attention you say I deserve...
Drifting on a memory
Cloud nine is where I use to be
Getting cards and flowers for no reason
Good morning texts
Afternoon "I miss you" messages
Ending the day with night cap activities
Hugs and kisses
Nibbles and licks
With a splash of sensualty
Made it all real for me...
Drifting on a memory
Cloud nine is where I use to be
Until one day devastation hit me
You said you no longer had love me
Watching my number on your caller ID
As you ignored the calls from me.
Took my heart and tied it to a tree
Beating all the feelings out of me..
Then leaving it dangling
Until I'm able to rescue it from further mangling...
Drifting on a memory..
Cloud nine is where I use to
Trying to mend the many parts of me
Not only physcially but mentally and emotionally
Those sunny skies for a while were just
Gray for me..
Those happy tunes
Fell on deaf ears
And I felt nothing but animosity
Something like hatred for something that
You stole away from me
A piece of mind...
Drifting on a memory..
Cloud nine is where I use to be
Devoting all of me
To somone who only gave half of he
Not realizing it
Blinded by what I was feeling
Instead of what my eyes were seeing
My ears were hearing
I became a victim of my feelings
Eventually healing and surfacing back to
The me I use to be..
One quiet nights when my mind is idle
I slip back into that past we had
I smile because without it I wouldn't be
The stronger woman you helped me to be
Heart break will do that...
As I put my headphones on
And listen to this song..
Drifting on a memory..
Lady R © 2014
This is the imagination I possess, the passion I uphold, the intriguing that I cause you to have. Enjoy the journey into my mind, heart, soul, and depths of my freaky nature.
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Whispers
Whispers
The quietness of the night
With my eyes shut tight..
I can hear you whisper in my ear
With the evening breeze creeping through the curtains
And the shades draping around me as though it were
Your arms..
I can feel your touch...
While the only sound in the house comes from the ticks
Of the clock on the wall..
I swear I can hear your foot steps..
Though I am fast asleep, in my mind I can sense your presence.
I can feel your breath breathing down on me
The soft kiss leave upon my cheek
The gentle embrace you give me..
I can hear your laughter fill the room
The cooking aroma only left by you...
The rain out side..
The tears I cannot hide as I bury my face in my pillow
And drift back to sleep..
Those whispers in my ear...
Those words I'll always hear
Of not to worry, well meet again some day..
Those whispers in my ear..
Those words I'll always hear..
I love you...
Lady R © 2014
The quietness of the night
With my eyes shut tight..
I can hear you whisper in my ear
With the evening breeze creeping through the curtains
And the shades draping around me as though it were
Your arms..
I can feel your touch...
While the only sound in the house comes from the ticks
Of the clock on the wall..
I swear I can hear your foot steps..
Though I am fast asleep, in my mind I can sense your presence.
I can feel your breath breathing down on me
The soft kiss leave upon my cheek
The gentle embrace you give me..
I can hear your laughter fill the room
The cooking aroma only left by you...
The rain out side..
The tears I cannot hide as I bury my face in my pillow
And drift back to sleep..
Those whispers in my ear...
Those words I'll always hear
Of not to worry, well meet again some day..
Those whispers in my ear..
Those words I'll always hear..
I love you...
Lady R © 2014
Beautiful
Beautiful
When he met me...
He called me by a name I had never heard before
At least not in relation to me..
Beautiful
He told me that my chocolate skin was flawless
And that it should be against the law that I looked so good
He said that naturalness of my hair gave me a certain flare
That he was drawn to
He said that I was beautiful..
The freshness of this relationship had me swept off my feet
When I would lay my head on his chest it was as if our heart beats
Were in sync..
And before I closed my eyes that night
He would whisper to me..
Good night beautiful before I drifted off to sleep..
He would pull me close to him
Run his fingers through my hair
Gently stroke my skin with his finger
And when I asked what he was doing
He said..
I'm tracing the word beauty...
Beautiful is what he called me..
I can't tell when it started happening, but it was suddenly, I could tell that the love for me was fading
No more whispers in my ear
No more traces on my skin
The only time he held me is before he shook me violently
With his hand around my neck and spit in my face as yelled at me
Cursed me..
Disgraced me
Shamed me..
He started calling me tar-baby
Saying the blackness of my skin was ugly..
My hair nappy and unmanageable..
And my confidence..
Began to crumble..
See I'm humble..
I never perceived be more than what I am
A woman..
A black woman..
Beautiful..
Bruises marked my delicate skin
Words left violent stains on my brain
And the physical.. so much to endure
Constant nights of arguing
Door slamming
Unanswered calls and texts
And nights spent sleeping alone..
Cold shoulders
Blank, loveless stares
And violent explosions
The harsh words of you don't love
And that I'm ugly
And not one else is going to want me
Dance around in my head
Force fed
Like I was being held down
Tied down
Captive
With no way to escape...
Instead of calling me beautiful
He continued to belittle and betray
So when I looked at my image in the mirror
All I saw was a distorted version of what I use to be
A mangled flesh portrait
Unrecognizable bag of bones
Disgusting..
UGLY..
Me..
I would hold my head down in shame..
Answer to those unmentionable names he would call me
And yet yearn for the love he once showed me
For those arms he once used to console me
Hold me
Those hands he once used to caress my skin
My beautiful skin...
For those fingers he use to trace beauty on me
And now he just used them
As a weapon
Objects of mass destruction
And leaves me beating and broken
As I sit here after our latest violent dance
Head hung so low
Soul crushed
Weakened body
And broken hearted..
Why do I stay?
Why can't I just walk away?
In the back of my mind
I'm hoping..
I'm wishing
I'm praying that he will call me
Beautiful once again..
Lady R © 2014.
When he met me...
He called me by a name I had never heard before
At least not in relation to me..
Beautiful
He told me that my chocolate skin was flawless
And that it should be against the law that I looked so good
He said that naturalness of my hair gave me a certain flare
That he was drawn to
He said that I was beautiful..
The freshness of this relationship had me swept off my feet
When I would lay my head on his chest it was as if our heart beats
Were in sync..
And before I closed my eyes that night
He would whisper to me..
Good night beautiful before I drifted off to sleep..
He would pull me close to him
Run his fingers through my hair
Gently stroke my skin with his finger
And when I asked what he was doing
He said..
I'm tracing the word beauty...
Beautiful is what he called me..
I can't tell when it started happening, but it was suddenly, I could tell that the love for me was fading
No more whispers in my ear
No more traces on my skin
The only time he held me is before he shook me violently
With his hand around my neck and spit in my face as yelled at me
Cursed me..
Disgraced me
Shamed me..
He started calling me tar-baby
Saying the blackness of my skin was ugly..
My hair nappy and unmanageable..
And my confidence..
Began to crumble..
See I'm humble..
I never perceived be more than what I am
A woman..
A black woman..
Beautiful..
Bruises marked my delicate skin
Words left violent stains on my brain
And the physical.. so much to endure
Constant nights of arguing
Door slamming
Unanswered calls and texts
And nights spent sleeping alone..
Cold shoulders
Blank, loveless stares
And violent explosions
The harsh words of you don't love
And that I'm ugly
And not one else is going to want me
Dance around in my head
Force fed
Like I was being held down
Tied down
Captive
With no way to escape...
Instead of calling me beautiful
He continued to belittle and betray
So when I looked at my image in the mirror
All I saw was a distorted version of what I use to be
A mangled flesh portrait
Unrecognizable bag of bones
Disgusting..
UGLY..
Me..
I would hold my head down in shame..
Answer to those unmentionable names he would call me
And yet yearn for the love he once showed me
For those arms he once used to console me
Hold me
Those hands he once used to caress my skin
My beautiful skin...
For those fingers he use to trace beauty on me
And now he just used them
As a weapon
Objects of mass destruction
And leaves me beating and broken
As I sit here after our latest violent dance
Head hung so low
Soul crushed
Weakened body
And broken hearted..
Why do I stay?
Why can't I just walk away?
In the back of my mind
I'm hoping..
I'm wishing
I'm praying that he will call me
Beautiful once again..
Lady R © 2014.
U.G.L.Y
U.G.L.Y
U.g.l.y you ain't got no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly..
Childhood nursery rhyme said to her so many times
Chanted in her face as she tried with everything not to
Let them see her weak..
To see a tear run down her cheeks..
So she sat quietly, as they continued to torment her
As the words played over and over in her head..
Then the bell rang and recess was over..
But the day seemed to drag on
And the mean children decided to keep on picking on
Poking at the quiet child in the class
And she took it...
U.g.l.y you ain't got no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly
Angry words burst from the mouth of the one you thought
Would always love you
Shelter you
And keep you from harm
But in drunken or toxic induced stupors they forget who you are
And the truth comes out
The feelings they always been feeling
The resent of you breathing
The blame of having to share their last name
With you...
And the fact that when they look at you..
They see them..
The them that left and didn't come back
It's your fault because you're so ugly..
U.g.l.y you ain't go no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly
Just to fit in you did things you said you wouldn't
Smoked a little
Drank a little
Even gave it up easy to the first guy that paid you attention
The first time he said you was pretty
Only took a week for him to get the kitty
And then he slanders you name...
Ignores your calls and texts
Leaves dirty viral messages about you..
But seven days ago..
You were his "pretty" boo..
Now look at what he's doing to you...
U.g.l.y you ain't got no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly
Tap the needle to get the venom circulating
Tie the rope around your arm to get the pulse
Pulsating
Insert the poison into your blood stream
Just so you can forget everything..
Let the painful events of the night vanish
Just like that man did after he left a couple dollars on the floor
And quickly left through the door
It means nothing..
Even though you try to suppress the dealings
You're overwhelmed by a depressed feeling..
So much you've gone through
No one to talk to..
To listen to you..
So you turn to the only thing you know how to do..
U.g.l.y please lord just let me die
She cried...
"I'm ugly"
Lady R © 2014
U.g.l.y you ain't got no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly..
Childhood nursery rhyme said to her so many times
Chanted in her face as she tried with everything not to
Let them see her weak..
To see a tear run down her cheeks..
So she sat quietly, as they continued to torment her
As the words played over and over in her head..
Then the bell rang and recess was over..
But the day seemed to drag on
And the mean children decided to keep on picking on
Poking at the quiet child in the class
And she took it...
U.g.l.y you ain't got no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly
Angry words burst from the mouth of the one you thought
Would always love you
Shelter you
And keep you from harm
But in drunken or toxic induced stupors they forget who you are
And the truth comes out
The feelings they always been feeling
The resent of you breathing
The blame of having to share their last name
With you...
And the fact that when they look at you..
They see them..
The them that left and didn't come back
It's your fault because you're so ugly..
U.g.l.y you ain't go no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly
Just to fit in you did things you said you wouldn't
Smoked a little
Drank a little
Even gave it up easy to the first guy that paid you attention
The first time he said you was pretty
Only took a week for him to get the kitty
And then he slanders you name...
Ignores your calls and texts
Leaves dirty viral messages about you..
But seven days ago..
You were his "pretty" boo..
Now look at what he's doing to you...
U.g.l.y you ain't got no alibi you ugly yea, yea you ugly
Tap the needle to get the venom circulating
Tie the rope around your arm to get the pulse
Pulsating
Insert the poison into your blood stream
Just so you can forget everything..
Let the painful events of the night vanish
Just like that man did after he left a couple dollars on the floor
And quickly left through the door
It means nothing..
Even though you try to suppress the dealings
You're overwhelmed by a depressed feeling..
So much you've gone through
No one to talk to..
To listen to you..
So you turn to the only thing you know how to do..
U.g.l.y please lord just let me die
She cried...
"I'm ugly"
Lady R © 2014
I Can't Breathe
I Can't Breathe...
My airways are constricted..
My thoughts conflicted
Yes's turn to no's and my no's to yes's
As I pace back and forth leaving a groove in the floor
I hear foot steps approaching the door
And I freeze...
I can't breathe..
The anger building up inside me.
My colorful sense is focused on one color alone
Red..
Crimson red..
The same crimson red that stained my clothes
As I held them close and felt them take their last breathe
With their last rise and fall of their chest
My heart stopped beating and for a moment I went with them
I can't breathe..
I can't conceive anything around me..
I can't hear..
My screams feel like I'm in a silent movie
Words captioned on the bottom of a T.V screen
Ignored, because to you they mean nothing..
Everything's in slow motion as the authorities tear your body away from me..
I'm numb..
I can't feel anything
I'm gasping for air..
I can't breathe..
I'm heartbroken as I watch a piece of me being wheeled away..
Vowed for revenge on the same day..
Restless nights
Relentless thoughts
And reality setting in...
Hiccupping as my eyes are streaming blinding tears
A tightness in my throat
An increase in my heartbeat
When I realized those same foot steps are getting closer to me..
Clutched in one hand his picture..
The other..
A shiny piece of steel that could steal your remaining years of living..
No remorse
I'm not sorry..
At this point only GOD can judge me
As I raise my weaponry
I can't breathe
You're face to face to me
I can't breathe
Staring down this barrel
I can't breathe
You lunge at me!
I squeeze the trigger!
You can't breathe...
And I'm finally exhaling...
Lady R © 2014
My airways are constricted..
My thoughts conflicted
Yes's turn to no's and my no's to yes's
As I pace back and forth leaving a groove in the floor
I hear foot steps approaching the door
And I freeze...
I can't breathe..
The anger building up inside me.
My colorful sense is focused on one color alone
Red..
Crimson red..
The same crimson red that stained my clothes
As I held them close and felt them take their last breathe
With their last rise and fall of their chest
My heart stopped beating and for a moment I went with them
I can't breathe..
I can't conceive anything around me..
I can't hear..
My screams feel like I'm in a silent movie
Words captioned on the bottom of a T.V screen
Ignored, because to you they mean nothing..
Everything's in slow motion as the authorities tear your body away from me..
I'm numb..
I can't feel anything
I'm gasping for air..
I can't breathe..
I'm heartbroken as I watch a piece of me being wheeled away..
Vowed for revenge on the same day..
Restless nights
Relentless thoughts
And reality setting in...
Hiccupping as my eyes are streaming blinding tears
A tightness in my throat
An increase in my heartbeat
When I realized those same foot steps are getting closer to me..
Clutched in one hand his picture..
The other..
A shiny piece of steel that could steal your remaining years of living..
No remorse
I'm not sorry..
At this point only GOD can judge me
As I raise my weaponry
I can't breathe
You're face to face to me
I can't breathe
Staring down this barrel
I can't breathe
You lunge at me!
I squeeze the trigger!
You can't breathe...
And I'm finally exhaling...
Lady R © 2014
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