Fool out of Me

I'm not a woman scored, I'm just one that's mad as hell. How dare you take my heart and forget I have feelings. Take it through the ringer getting rid of all my emotions leaving me motionless then trying to come back and saying you are sorry just to end up doing it again!

Fool me once it's shame on you
Fool me twice it's shame on me
Trying it three times some things are going to start moving physically...

I'm not a woman scored, I'm just one that's mad as hell. I get tired of all the fussing and fighting.
Tired of all the arguments that you just keep picking... at the end f the day I know what the truth is.  Storm out the door like I don't know where you're going only to come vack later smelling like lady Burberry.  I guess uou think I'm silly...

Fool me once it's shame on you
Fool me twice it's shame on me
Trying it three times some things are going to start moving physically...

This last fight took the cake. I promise I never felt so much verbal hate. So much animosity.  She must have you wide open, you just had to see how much greener can other grace be. So you left out once again over an argument that you began. This time though when you decided to come back I already had your bags packed. Locks changed on the doors and you without the key.

No more baby I'm sorry
No more please forgive
No more making a fool out of me.

Lady R (c) 2013

I'm A Survivor

I’m A Survivor

I went to the doctor today for a routine checkup.

All smiles and no worries. Just a little small talk

And needle stick and I’ll be done.

I went to the doctor today and they found a lump.

They found a lump in my breast and my sunny sky’s

Turned to gray.

The doctor told me not to worry, it’s probably nothing

But just to be sure let them check the lump out. After a

Small procedure and months of waiting my worst feelings

Have come true. They found a lump and it was cancer.

My world as I knew was turned upside down, but at this

Moment I can’t give up..

I’m a survivor I survive.

I wake up every morning a little more tired. My system

Started getting a little weaker, but I push on. Not just for me

But for my family. I’m a survivor. I survive.

No matter what my days may bring me, no matter how many

Medication are giving to me. I have a purpose.

I’m a survivor, I survive.

Even if I’m dying on the inside, I still smile wide because it’s

More to this than meets the eye. Every night I say my prayer

Before I sleep and prayer to the Lord that I’m the one he keeps

Not just for me, but for my family because..

I’m a survivor, I survive

I went to the doctor today and after all the procedures

I’ve endured, all the blood that was taken, all the tears

That were shed. All the beeping of the monitors that kept

Me up at night. All the smiles, all the frowns.

The doctors tells me that it’s over and calls me a survivor

I survived.

Lady R © 2012

Red, White, and Blue

They said this was the land of the free and the home of the brave, but in our minds we are still enslaved WE are too quick to become apart of the stereotypical type of people, instead of trying to be original people are flocking to that koolaid fad, calling Jim Jones you dad. How sad.
Seeing that Red, White, and Blue flapping in the wind. Again suppose to symbolize freedom, that isn't what I see.

The Red blood shed spread across the globe. Taking away the live of the sons and daughters, the mother's and fathers. Violence cutting lives short. Ignorance stopping dreams cold. Hatred breaking the mold. Existences over, even before they began. Blood shot eyes from all the crying, questions being fired and no one is answering.

The Blue lights flashing, bullhorn blaring, freeze and get on your knees. No time for an explaination, just another case of mistaken identification. In the wrong place at the wrong time where being black was his own crime. Being placed in a 8X10 stonewalled hell. Screaming and shouting "It wasn't me!", but no one listens to your plea. So you look to the heavens and ask GOD "Please set me free."

The White of the bright lights blinding you as your rushed through white double doors looking at people with white covered masks desperately gasping for air and no matter how much you try, it seems like nothing is there. White stars forming before your eyes, tears runnings as you pray and say your goodbyes. Now your dressed in your white linen suit and laid out in your blue permenant bed, covered in the red roses from the foot to the head.

I glance you for the last time. I'm red with anger because you're leaving me here. Blue with sadness because I won't be able to see or call you everyday, just to say "Hey. I was thinking about you." And when I flashback to all the good time we shared. Even though we argued, you were still there. A peaceful white seems to appear.

They said this was the land of the free and the home of the brave. I still wonder if that's true. I wonder, if anyone else see's this how I see the Red, White, and Blue.

Copyright 2012 © Lady R

I Have Something to Say

I have something to say
But I'm not quite sure how to say it
Words seem to escape me when the visions of you
Come into view
And what I had to say just disappears into thin air
The emotions of anger I felt melted when you
Came close and whispered in my ear...

I'm weakened by you..
Your physical presence, sometimes I detest it
But all gets forgiving by the loving I be getting
So mad at myself for falling once again for the
Psychical...
You talked your way out of an argument and into my panties
With this issue still unresolved ..

I have something to say...
For one minute can you stop with all this " I don't want to talk about it"
Just for one second can you listen?
Pissed off because you walk off with keys in hand
Yelling over your shoulder you going to hang out with your friends
Then hours later, you come back home with a much calmer tone
But smelling like a HER perfume..

You think I didn't notice?
Those weren't the clothes that you left in
And that fruity fragrance your skin is drenched in
Then you wonder why I get pissed at you all over again
See I was almost ready to say forget and forgive
But this right here lit a new fire
A new inferno of arguments...

I have something to say
Just shut up and listen this will be the last time I get my feelings in it
Over worked and under loved by you.
Continuously played for a fool
Ignoring all the women that called his house looking for you
Tired of trying I have no more try to give
Coming to the conclusion that loving you wasn't the best for us two.

I have something to say
I think I've said it
But just in case you don't get it..
I'll break it down to you..

Game over.. you lose.

Lady R © 2013

Never be a Two

Never Be a Two

He lusts her..
She likes him..
He says he misses her, but his girlfriend is the one who share's his bed
Tugging on her heart strings, playing with her head.
Explicit pics being sent in the wee hours of the night
Said he woke up from a dream with her in it
Snapped the pic and then sent it.

He lusts her..
She likes him..
He says he misses her, but proclaims to the world how happy he is with his girl
He shows signs of jealousy when other men look her way
Inside she envy's public affections on display..
Tugging on her hearts strings, playing with her head
Her emotions so twisted, it's hard to believe what's being said.

He lusts her..
She likes him..
Its a forbidden love affair, she feels like the other woman without being there
Being friendly on the outside, but secretly within wishing she was number one
Because number twos never win.
He says if only things were different he would be her man..
Tugging on her hearts strings, playing with her head.

He lusts her..
She likes him..
Deep down inside she knows that things won't change
It will continue to be secret texts and hidden pics
Quiet as kept "I miss you's and I miss you too" said between the two.
He says that he likes her something much greater, but conversation proves him wrong
As he tugging on her hearts strings, playing with her head.

He lusts her.. her physical he says keeps calling him..her mental is taunting him. He's lusting after a woman he can not have.

She likes him.. his conversation, his motivation, his determination to make things happen, his drive and his passion.. She likes a man she can not have...

He lusts her..
She likes him..
But there will never be a two of them...

Lady R © 2013

Pink Sundress

Chocolate dipped cotton candy she wore that pink sundress as the sun caressed her skin. The wind blew her fragrance in his direction causing instant titillation and sending his senses on high..
Chocolate dipped cotton candy she wore that pink sundress as the sun kissed her skin. Heels leveled at 3 inches as she switches when she walks by. Automatically catching his first, second, and third eye. He stares at her, waiting to make his move.

Opens his mouth to say something smooth but words dribble like a leaking faucet.
 Chocolate dipped cotton candy she wore that pink sundress as the sun caressed her skin. Her smile made his mistakes feel like nothing, while she engaged his conversation, personality blazing like the molten lava, it just oozed from her and captured anyone that was in her way.
Chocolate dipped cotton candy she wore that pink sundress as the sun caressed her skin. That minute turned into something timeless as each moment that was spent was better than the last. As he looks at her lovingly, admiration of his Queen. The pure beauty of her ebony. Sharing with each other the love that felt, and not only seen. Like two floating on a dream.
Chocolate dipped cotton candy she wore that pink sundress as the sun caressed her skin. The winds blew gently as they stand face to face with the man of GOD in place, before friends and family vowing to love each other eternally. Placing that promising kiss upon the lips
gazing at the sun setting in the distance.
And just think this began at just a glace at her wearing that pink sundress.

Lady R © 2013

Truth Is

The truth is, I didn't believe in you.
Every time I thought I felt it, it wasn't true.
I poured my all into you.
Leaving me half empty.
Plenty of times you have my smiles turn into cries
What I thought was true, was actually lies.
But still I stayed...
despite what I was feeling inside.

The truth is, I think I avoid you.
Because I know the type of emotions
You cause people to do.
I didn't think I was strong enough to handle you
The ups and downs
The highs and lows..
It was something I didn't think I could control.

The truth is, when you finally took a hold me.
You didn't let go.
No matter how I tried to run and hide.
You were there behind every corner,
In step with every stride
I have to admit it felt right to just give in and let go
And allow you to show me what I've been missing...

The truth is, True love... you scare the hell out of me
But in all honestly..
I'm ready..

Lady R © 2013

He Use to Say

He use to say...I was his temple.
He would never desecrate me
He use to say...I was his queen to reign by his side
He would never disrespect me
He use to say...I was his other half
He couldn't see him with out me.
But how soon things change when the pussy is thown at him
How easy for him to forget what I mean to him
Sinfully subjected to the evils of what lies between anothers thighs
As the immoral act of lust is engaged a piece of the heart I gave you
Dies away. Disintegrates into ashes and is blown away.
Each stroke you give her...
Each kiss you inflict...
The more I disappear from your mind.
There's no guilt for the crime you committed
The savage killing of my heart...
The way you did it...
No remorse...
No feeling...
No nothing...

He use to say I was his temple
He use to say I was his queen
He use to say I was his other half

But apparently those words had empty meanings.

Lady R © 2012

Unloved Remix

As I sit drowning myself in the liquid medication
hoping to forget the past events
So fresh in my mind like they just happened.
I hear the sounds and see the lips moving
But nothing is registering.
Looking at you...seeing two of you...and then seeing nothing.

Waking up.. head spinning.. dragging myself into the bathroom
And there you are.. following..throwing question after question at me
I don't have any answers..I just want to yell "stop bothering me!"
But even that is too painful to do..
So I just ignore you.
Closing the door on you as the porcelain throne meets my face.

You're here because I wasn't raised to believe in abortion
Parenting, I was told was suppose to be a blessing.
I see you and feel nothing but queasy, an unsettling feeling
Sweat pours down my face as I keep reminiscing
Reaching for another bottle to empty..
And I keep hearing... Mommy...Mommy...Mommy... then nothing.

It was a one night stand that ended in multiple orgasm
and legs being sticky...Woke up the next morning
Barely able to walk, but left smiling.
And then a month pasted and no visit from mother nature.
Next move was to the clinic when every morning waking up
I was feeling sick to my stomach...Confirmation.. I'm pregnant.

The pain was unbearable.
To look at you unable. You sat in the basket without me holding you
So close to giving you up for adoption, but part of me still wanted you
And for a moment I lost myself in you..
At first I thought I could do. To look at you and smile..but nights got
Shorter, and days grew longer...and you grew..

As I sit drowning myself in the liquid medication
hoping to forget the past events
So fresh in my mind like they just happened.
I hear the sounds and see the lips moving
But nothing is registering.
Looking at you...seeing two of you...and then seeing nothing.

I keep trying..to love you...
Because you're part of me..
But it's because you're part of me..

I know.. what could be..
You're blood.. you're family.

Lady R © 2013

If Only

If only for a moment I could take back the time I spent with you
I promised things would have turned out different...
I would have forced myself to just ignore you...
But instead, I gravitated towards..
Like a moth to flame
Bee's to honey
It was over for me before it truly began...

If only for a minute
I could have bypassed you
Looked passed you, or maybe like a superhero saw right through you
I wouldn't have went through the pain of the break up from you..
To tell the truth..
I can't remember what I actually saw in you
Blinded by the nice smile and those pretty eyes...

If only for a second
I could take back that "I love you too" because in reality
You weren't ready for what you told me.
Just used it to hold me steady...
Had my heart dangling on the thinnest of lines
While you fed me nothing by lies
And I believed them...

If only.. I could rewind the hands of time and visit my past self
To tell her "Don't believe the hype, he's not really your type."
I wonder if I would have listened?
You know how stubborn we can be, always giving advice, but we never listen
But in this instance, I would have ran..
Instead of being placed in the situation I was in...
Loving someone who really didn't know what love is..

If only I could take back my decision..
I feel like you came into my life on a mission
And left just as quickly without a reason
But I believe it was a lesson best learned...
As feelings and emotions got overworked..overlooked, and overturned.
I'm not going to wish bad on you. It's not my job to, because karma
Is going to handle you...

I just can not help but to think... If only.

Lady R © 2013

Skin to Skin

Skin to Skin

Pushed up against a wall as you tear my clothes off.
pictures falling to the floor, leave them there I don't care
Your hands mangle my body
Your lips attack mine
Allowing me to taste that bitter sweet wine
Buttons from your shirt flying every where
As I rip it off your skin

That Dark brown
Sensual smelling
Warm to the touch
His Skin
Makes me melt
As I felt the smoothness of your
Skin
We let the sinfulness of the evening begin
Skin to skin

Loud sounds of pleasure erupt
As I lose my breath and try desperately to catch it
At the moment of euphoric, intense, electrifying
Emotions..
With his whispers in my ear
The slight tugging on my hair
While touching your skin

That Dark brown
Sensual smelling
Warm to the touch
His Skin
Makes me melt
As I felt the smoothness of your
Skin
We let the sinfulness of the evening begin
Skin to skin

Bodies perspiring
Eyes full of lust
As you thrust the inner parts of my skin
Teeth nibble my chin
Hands lock my wrist above my head
Breast to chest
Touching your skin

That Dark brown
Sensual smelling
Warm to the touch
His Skin
Makes me melt
As I felt the smoothness of your
Skin
We let the sinfulness of the evening begin
Skin to skin

At the height of the evening
Left no part untouched, unkissed, unlicked
As I touch you skin
Tangled in the sheets
Leaving each other quivering
Shivering..
Against your skin

That Dark brown
Sensual smelling
Warm to the touch
His Skin
Makes me melt
As I felt the smoothness of your
Skin
With the sinfulness of the evening coming to an end

Skin to skin

Lady R © 2013