If Only

If only for a moment I could take back the time I spent with you
I promised things would have turned out different...
I would have forced myself to just ignore you...
But instead, I gravitated towards..
Like a moth to flame
Bee's to honey
It was over for me before it truly began...

If only for a minute
I could have bypassed you
Looked passed you, or maybe like a superhero saw right through you
I wouldn't have went through the pain of the break up from you..
To tell the truth..
I can't remember what I actually saw in you
Blinded by the nice smile and those pretty eyes...

If only for a second
I could take back that "I love you too" because in reality
You weren't ready for what you told me.
Just used it to hold me steady...
Had my heart dangling on the thinnest of lines
While you fed me nothing by lies
And I believed them...

If only.. I could rewind the hands of time and visit my past self
To tell her "Don't believe the hype, he's not really your type."
I wonder if I would have listened?
You know how stubborn we can be, always giving advice, but we never listen
But in this instance, I would have ran..
Instead of being placed in the situation I was in...
Loving someone who really didn't know what love is..

If only I could take back my decision..
I feel like you came into my life on a mission
And left just as quickly without a reason
But I believe it was a lesson best learned...
As feelings and emotions got overworked..overlooked, and overturned.
I'm not going to wish bad on you. It's not my job to, because karma
Is going to handle you...

I just can not help but to think... If only.

Lady R © 2013