Playtime

As I played outside that day
My life as a child was devastated...
I heard a loud bang...
Felt the ground shake...
And the cracks it the concrete began to form...
I looked the once blue sky now changed to charcoal grey
The screams of the hurt echoed through the air...

As I played outside that day
Car alarms were triggered
Cries of the innocent rang out
I heard shouting from every direction
The sirens from the fire engines blared..
And the police sped down the streets to where the loud
Band was heard...

Crash...

Accidents were happening
2 and 3 car pile ups as the buildings in the distance
Came crumbling down...
Smokey filled environment
Infernos...
Small tornadoes
Gaping holes..

As I played outside that day...
Phone lines snapped in half
The power on the block flickered then the street lights
Went off..
Even though it was daytime, the atmosphere was eerie
Dark.

As I played outside that day...
And history was forming before me..
I sat down on the stoop and watched like I was in a
Slow motion movie...
Like time stood still
My playtime was over...

Lady R © 2013

So Wrong Part 1 & 2

So Wrong (Pt 1)

I was nervous as heck. I did one more check in the mirror before I walked out the door. Once I was satisfied with how my legs looked in my skinny jeans and how my shirt accentuated my chest; I glossed my lips and sprayed on my Beyonce perfume then headed out the door.

It was a beautiful day outside. The sun was shining, the leaves were blowing in the wind; it just seemed like today was going to be a great day! I hopped in my car and instantly turned my deck on to cd 3 track 4 :Pretty Girl Swag; boomed through the speakers. I rolled down the windows and headed to my destination.

It took about 15 minutes to get to the studio. I pulled up next to a 2013 Impala. "Dang what a pretty car" I thought to myself. I put my car in park, and decided to do one more check in the Impala's tented windows before I headed inside. Just as I was touching up my gloss the window started to roll down. I jumped back kinda of shocked and embarrassed at the same time.

Lady R © 2013

So Wrong (Pt 2)

The window rolled down and smoke came from inside the car, hitting me in the face. Coughing and waving the smoke off. I started to apologize, but this deep voice came from inside
"No need to try and fix perfection love" He said
I couldn't see his face, but his voice was sexy as hell. Once the smoke cleared his face finally came into view. "dang he sexy" was the first thing that came to mind. He had a thin, nicely cut, gold tee. Low cut hair, creamy looking chocolate skin, and pretty brown eyes with thick eye lashes.
I caught myself starring at him, so to play it off I smiled at him.
"Thank you." I replied.
"You're more than welcome." He said. We started a small conversation. He told me name was Tyrek Wallace and he worked in the building I was going to. I asked him what he did, but he wouldn't tell me.
Time started to slip away, and it was almost time for my interview.
"I hate to end this conversation," I stated, "but I have to get going. Maybe I'll see you around."
"It was nice talking to you too Ms. Lady. I exited the car and headed to the building.

I got to the front desk and signed in. Looking behind me I saw the young gentlemen I just had a conversation with come in and go into the employee only entrance. I waved at him and he winked at me.
As I waited for my interview, I saw a few more candidates come into the office. They were gorgeous, but I wasn't worried.

Moments later my name was called. I stood up and walked with the confidence of me already having the job would show. The area was already set up. The receptionist handed me a outfit and pointed me to the dressing room.
I changed and when I came out.. the receptionist said; "Mr. Wallace will see you now."

Lady R © 2013

Stay Beautiful

He told me stay beautiful
Don't fall into what others say I should be
Continue to stay true to who I am
Only change to better me but
Stay true to me..
My beauty is the purest that he's ever seen

He told me stay beautiful
Not just on the outside
But let it shine from within
It's my kindness and intelligence
That keeps his attention
My beauty is the purest that he's ever seen

He told me stay beautiful
The truth is in my eyes
He said my expressions tell it all
Even if I wanted to I couldn't lie
My beauty is the purest that he's ever seen

He told me I'm always beautiful..
On the days I feel so ugly
On the days things don't go right
On the days we are argue and fight
On days my confidence isn't too high
He said my beauty is the purest that he's ever seen

He said he loves me for me...
He loves my beauty
It's the purest he's ever seen..

Lady R© 2013

My Bestie

We clicked like instantly...
Two kids one quite and one feisty
She was the peanut butter to my grape jelly..
The Shaggy to my Scooby
My ace
My buddy
My Bestie

I met her in the fifth grade..
Both in uniform
Pigtails and braids
Seated next to each other by name
At least that's what I thought..

We had a lot in common
From our mama's knowing each other
Down to our favorite colors
My ace
My buddy
My bestie

When we graduated from grade school
Most people loose touch after high school..
But not us two..
No matter how long we were a part
Our friendship never withered
She's my home slice
My Ace
My buddy
My bestie!

The one female I call a sister
No blood involved
Our friendship throughout the years
Has evolved
The one I tell my secrets to and not have to worry
About a snitching issue...
My ace
My buddy
My bestie

We're like Thelma and Louise whenever we
Get together
Call her through any type of personal weathers..
My ace
My buddy
My bestie

My heart..
My sister..
My best friend even in another life I know we'd meet again!

Lady R ©2013

This Isn't Goodbye

Black and grey skies
Bone chilling winds
I hold on to him so tightly...
This isn't goodbye

Tears stream from my eyes...as I cry... arm wrapped around him and his emotionless response
This isn't goodbye

His body stiffens
His stare so blank
I can't take this feeling
This isn't goodbye

The harder I hugged him the more my vision became compromised. Our clothes saturated in crimson red.
But I can't let go..
This isn't goodbye..

As I inhaled and exhaled I felt his faint heart beat finally he put his weakened arms around me..
He whispered in my ear..

My heart aches because I know I must leave but when you look up at the stars and the biggest one twinkles that would be me. Watching and protecting you until we meet again.

He kisses my cheeks
Tell me loves me
The clouds open up above me..one last hug he gave me...

He walked toward the brightest glow I had ever seen...
He looked back at me
Smiled faintly...
Mouthed these words to me...

This isn't goodbye

Lady R (c) 2013

My Mama Told Me

My mama told me don't listen to those lil boys
They not just trying to play with my toys
At the time I didn't know what she meant
I just shook my head like I understood it

My mama told me : don't let them push you around
So when she pushed me that day I pushed her to the ground. I got in trouble of course, but I stood my ground.
So I was proud.

My mama told me : don't put all my eggs in one basket, it's cool to believe in it, but make sure I have a backup just in case those eggs start to crack and break. So I always kept a reserve.

My mama told me that love shouldn't cost a thing
Unless he wining and dining you, being a gentlemen, doing the courtship thing, but at the end of that all she better see a engagement ring... Goodness mama

My mama told me what you won't do another woman will, so make sure that man is fed, be his woman and his best friend, don't give him a reason to window shop, because with me at home I should have it on lock. Truth mama.

My mama told me what he won't do another man will. When I've given it my all, and he's given nothing but heartache and headache and time and time again promises are broken, then its time to go. I hit the door mama.

My mama gave me the best advice that she could ever give. Be a God fearing woman, and the lord will provide
Because from him you can't hide your pain or cover his eyes. He sees all and is in your corner. So I prayed mama.

My mama taught me to be all the woman that I could be.
I still go by the advice my mama gave to me.

Lady R © 2013

Wickedness

All I want to hear is the tune of your heart
Beat you of your pulse
The rhythm of the breaths you take
As I feel your chest rise and fall..

Our lips
Quiver after every kiss in anticipation of the next
Tremble...
Pulsate...
Shake...

Our hands...
Explore each others bodies
From face and cheeks
To legs and thighs
Body temperature is on the rise

Our eyes...
I can see my reflection in yours
The lustful glares you give me
Your stare is sensually devouring me
Conquering me..
Making me weak..

Our bodies...
I'm trying to fight...
Trying not to give in to this pleasurable sin
Trying not to relinquish
To admit defeat
But this wickedness is getting the best of me.

No don't...
Bit on my lip...
Kiss my neck...

I must fight it

No don't...
Pin my arms above my head...
Whisper in my ear...

No don't...
Kiss my lips
Squeeze my hips
And leave your finger prints on my skin

I can't give in...
His touch is like kryptonite
Every stroke is like lit dynamite
I'm ready to explode
With every caress I reignite.

I surrender to this flesh..
I give in to this sin...
How this pleasurable wickedness did win.

Lady R © 2013

He's Thinking

I wonder what he's thinking...
I see him looking at me
His admiration in his eyes
The gentleness in his touch
The way that he caresses me.

I wonder what he is thinking
The embrass he gives me
The texts he sends me
The joking way he plays with me..
Just so he can hear my laugh..

I wonder what he is thinking
When he kisses my forehead at night
While his fingers are locked with mine
As we walk side by side at the same pace
When he smiles at me at a glance

I wonder what he is thinking
As we lay next to each other each night
Pillow talk until the wee hours of the morning
Holds me close even when I'm snoring
Or when he moves the hair out of my face...

I wonder what he is thinking...
So I asked him
Just because I wanted to know
He told me
It's me that's he's thiniking of
That my heart fits his heart like a glove
That he smiles because I make his spirit sore
That he couldn't and wouldn't ask for anything more

Oh except for one thing..
And thenhe got down on one knee
And said this last thinking he was thinking...
Will you marry me..

Lady R © 2013

Ex Factor

I don't know why I keep letting you get to me
After all this time you should be an insigificant memory
But like a rash you pop up and keep itching me
You spread within.. causing me to have feelings that I thought I was through with
I can't fool with it. I won't go back to that sad place you drug me to me.
Had me thinking it was me when it was really you.
I'll never forget these words you said,
"I don't think I'm good for you".
That's what you told me..
For a while they played over and over in my head...
Like how could this be true, when I chose you...
For the longest I couldn't wrap my mind around it
I didn't like the sound of it
It was hard being a one after being a two so long with you...
BUT I'm over it..
It's done with
It was true
I was too good for you

Lady R © 2013

History

This place held so many memories
The type if memories I wish were history
Broken furnace so we had no heat.
Only thing to keep us warm was our bodies.
Parentless child, or should I say they were there but didn't care...

Wish these memories were history...

Worried about the next hit, or finding the money to get it.. that when I became a hot commodity. .. don't worry its not gonna hurt that long they would say to me. .

Wish these memories were history....

I would say faded pictures but there were none... anything that resembled happiness gone like a smoking gun
Didn't get to experience the meaning of fun.. my life was over before it begun

Wish these memories were history....

As I walk around the rubble of what use to be. I place a flower on the place I lost a part of me...
I wonder...
Do they remember my history. ...

Lady R © 2013