Christmas Never Comes

Its always cold..
No heat coming from vents
No smiles on faces
I have to close my eyes and think of warm places
No arms wrapped around me
No kisses on my cheeks
Cold days in December
Christmas never comes for me

I've cried so much that my tear ducts are swollen
I've been hungry to the point where my ribs felt like they were broken
No clothes that fit
Shoes that hurt my feet
A mattress with coils that poke me when I sleep
Cold days in December
Christmas never comes for me

Every day I wake up...
It's such a struggle
No idea what's going to happen
But prepared for the future
Only a child am I
Dealing with situations unthought of
I can only pray to the Man above...
Cold days in December
Christmas never comes for me

It's snowing...
Children are outside playing
But because I have not warm clothes
I'm on the sidelines watching
No laughter for me..
Only sickness if I deal with the winter fury
Snowflakes falling...
Everyone is singing..
Cold days in December
Christmas never comes for me...

It's December 24th...
That's Christmas Eve.. I mailed my letter to Santa Clause
Months before the season to give him plenty of time
To answer my wish...
December 25th and more snow is falling..
I wake up to silence.. my name no one is calling
Walking to the gathering room...
To see if my wish was granted..
If my present arrived..
To my disappointment, but not really a surprise..
I'm still stuck in this hole..
Because no parents have arrived..

Cold days in December
Christmas never comes for me

Lady R © 2013