No Love For Me

My face…
Stained with the tears of disappointment
The broken promises from the one I love
My eyes…
Show the hurt and exhaustion of the empty
Anticipation, because every day is something different
A different excuse you decide to use
Instead of spending time with me.
My heart…
Broken so many times, the thread used to mend it
Isn’t strong enough anymore and yet my heart becomes
Stone…
Fragile… Yes I am, because as a child I believed in you
As an impressionable youth, I call you on for guidance
Instead you turn to distance and lies
Which leaves me to cry…
Shedding these tears of no communication
Leaving me in a state of devastation
A feeling of exasperation because you choose not do
What a parent should do…
A lonely feeling…
A vacant soul
A child forced to grow alone…
No one to tell me how much they care…
Look into my eyes as the moisture blemishes my cheeks
While I try to speak to you and you ignore me…
Never have you uttered the words of “You Love Me”…
An accident I was you tell me…
Here I wasn’t supposed to be…
How you can’t stand to look at me because when you do it’s him you see…
My tears I want to cry with you…
My existence in vain
A child I am…
Your seed…
It’s your blood that flows through me…
And yet there’s no love for me…

Lady R © 2013