My Coin Flipper

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My Coin Flipper

The rain came down in trenches
Drenches not only his clothing
But the thoughts within
He watches me closely I can see him as he
Flips his coin in the air.
His empty eyes
His blank stares
Those glares..
Send chills down my skin
He follows me..
Watching me as I try and stray away
But it's like a scene from a movie
No matter how fast I run he's right behind me
Flipping his coin in the air
Every corner..
He's there
Every shelter
He's there..
Just flipping that coin in the air
I remember..
I was faced with a situation
And as soon as I was about to make my decision
A change came over me when I seen him watching
In the rain..
Flipping his coin in the air
His stare got to me
I could feel him watching me...
From a distance
I'll tell you about another instance
True it was probably going to be another bad decision
And as soon as I was standing right in front of it.
Like it was literally right there
In reach
Just in my grasp
And I felt his eyes burning a whole in my soul
Whatever, I was going to do left me just as quickly as it entered
I turned to see him
Flipping that coin in the air
That evening..
I went home
Removed my clothing..
And rinsed what I felt was the filth from the day..
As I did, I felt a burden being lifted
Like a new life had been given
And yes it was still raining.
After my shower I turned on the television
And the images before my eyes brought tears to my eyes
Those situation I was trying to place myself in
The people involved in it met an untimely demise
One person shot
Another one stabbed
And a car accident with no survivors
How I'm thankful
That his stares steered me home and out of the line of fire..
That night I went to bed..
And as I laid down my head..
I looked out the once more
To see that man
With wings expanded..
Flipping that coin in the air.

Lady R © 2013

These Thighs

These Thighs

I was told that I should apologize for these thighs. These chocolate covered, thick and fluffy thighs. These tattooed and enticing, make jeans look like they are painted on thighs. These thighs that jiggle just a little when I walk.

I was told that I should apologize for these eyes. These eyes that have stories that are untold. These eyes that if you stare long enough they can peer into your soul. These eyes that twinkle in the sun or the moonlight.

I was told that I should apologize for these lips and smile that can turn the worst day around. These lips and smile that can have a man travel for miles just to be in my presence. These lips that speak the truth and this smile that can hypnotize.

I was told that I should apologize for this mind. The one I use to make my own decisions. The one that enables me to be my own person and to use assertion to get my points across.

Why should I have to apologize for being the creation that God made me? Who said that everyone had to the same? So what if I’m not 5’10 weighing 110. I’m embracing my 5’4 and my and my juiciness galore. I implore thee to be who are made to be and not conform into what society deems you should be.

I will not apologize for the skin I’m in.

I will not apologize for these eyes.

I will not apologize for these lips and smile.

I will not apologize for this mind.

I will not apologize for these thighs.

Lady R © 2012

I Am This

I Am This

People seem to take me as a joke when I’m writing, but I get the last laugh when I’m chuckling on my way to bank from what the bleeding of my ink did. How candid can you be when you see me on the streets talking about “hey baby, I missed you.” And I’m like “Oh nigga now you know me?” Weren’t you the same one who told me that I wasn’t going to get anywhere because I didn’t have it lyrically? Well, I got news for you I got this shit poetically. It may not be to a beat that you can hear, but it flows to the beat of my heart and from the start I felt this. When I picked up the pen I melted into this, and sexed the words until I gave birth to this.

Let me break it down some more since I can tell in by the look in your face that you can’t understand what I’m going for. See these words aren’t just words that I am speaking. I cook this; I eat this, and then shit out something amazing. Smelling like tulips because roses are overrated and that last line you read again because it left you faded.

I do this because I am this. I was born with a pen in my hand and gifted with poetic expression from the lyrical Gods. I pour my blood, tears, and sweat into this. I build my mental to this. I strengthen my physical to this, and I let my spirit run all through this.

It’s funny how you didn’t believe in this and was so quick to dismiss my ability to handle this, but when you see me on your TV screen and hear my on your radio you’ll finally realize how I can control this dactylic flow, leaving your jaw dropped to the floor and you trying to kiss my ass as I sashay pass and once I’m at a distance I turn to you to blow you a kiss and leave you with the message; I do this, I’m true to this; this poetic lifestyle I AM THIS.

Lady R © 2012

Purple Haze

A reflection..
Our silhouette doing there own dance as the flickering
Of lavender scented candles fill the air
Purple lighting casting a glow on the honey colored skin
Sweet to the taste
In anticipation of being just as thick and sticky between the waist
So why wait?
Purple kisses landing on golden skin
Ingiting a passion within
Lustful imagination taking control
Royal sex scenes unfold
Yet behold..
You're holding back
Sitting there smoking the purple grape flavored black
Trying to act mild
While to porno wildchild inside is trying to break free
Don't believe me?
I can see everything
You're mouth says one thing
But your eyes tell a different story
One I'm ready to be lullabyed to.
So let's begin...
Purple wax dripping on my supple caramel skin
Moans of pain and pleasure take flight
Heigthened by the intensity of each love bite
Lips torturing my vulerable spot
Unprotected, I'm weakened
Sounding off as quietly as I can
But your lips on my flesh has me speaking differently..
Body overheating
Milky feeling of me melting
Creamy, golden, caramel of me
On you candle stick..
With a wick that never dulls
Purple intensity
Golden perplexity of each position explored
From the couch
Bed
Counter
Floor
Window
Hell even the door
Shiny yellow picture framed of the lavender lotus flower shattered
This bottle of glass bubbly spilled
But none of that matters
I'm focused on this passionate night
Bodies rocking as one
With the goal to get one...or two..or three..
Toes curling
Hair pulled
Nails digging in your back
Lips surrounding swollen breast
Hands leaving finger prints on my assests
As we rock..
Harder..
Faster..
Filling the room with sex and lavender
Getting high off our own purple haze
As our canvases exploded
Leaving purple and golden dust in the atmosphere
And we come down from our purple cloud
Letting our purple smoke clear the air.

Love Don't Live Here

The separation of truth.
The distance between me and you.
I see you..
The reflection of what is to be
I'm looking..
I see you..
So close yet so far away
So many words I have to say and those words I want to hear
But yet I fear I will never..Not from you
But...
I see you..
What's keeping you from me?
I mean really besides this fence what else could it be?
Come closer..
Don't you want to see me
Face to face?
Speaking in proximity of maybe 1 or 2 feet
I'm your counterpart
A mini me
A physical impression
I see you..
Looking and wondering
The appearance on my face hold so many questions
Like...
Why are you leaving?
When are coming back?
And you left them. unanswered
I see you..
I followed you down the street..
You kept a steady pace to get away from me
I reached for you..
You jerked away..
I called for you
You ignored me
I chased after you
While you ran from me..
I couldn't pursue you any longer
With the fence in front of me blocking my path
So I just looked at you
Your image fading..
As you leave me..

I see you..

New Life

There's nothing like new life.
Unexpected delight
Moments of nervousness
Smiles from within
A new mother hen..
Me..
Now how to explain this to the father
True enough I'm probably the same age as his daughter
An older gentlemen who swept me off my feet
Only to lead me on with lies and deceit...
A secret life he was having with me.
Wine and dined
Treated like I was his only
But left me some days feeling lonely.
Me.
On this evening I decided to share our good news
He looked at me crazy and I couldn't have this baby
Heart broken I became
Because he didn't want our child to have his last name.
Devastation set in as he told me he was a married man.
He already raised his kids
So what was I to do?
He gave me money to get rid of what was growing inside of
Me.
I couldn't believe, but I guess I should have guessed it.
No overnights
No real calls, just texts
Meeting you at different places
But none of them your home and I'm left feeling all alone.
Me.
Your answer was so definite.
There was no changing your mind
After I met up with you that day, you changed your phone line
Cut out all communication.
Like I never existed
A notch in you belt is how I'm being treated.
Me.
Forget all the time we spent together
The L word you used so frequently...
But now that I'm having your baby, there's no love for me?
I mean REALLY!?
You're no grown man, just a boy who aged too quickly.
I learned from a strong woman
That a man isn't needed, but wanted.
To teach a child both sides of life, but if I have a choice
I wouldn't want you around because you're so trif!
My focus now is me
And this new life growing inside of me.

Lady R © 2013

Last Laugh

They say a car is nothing but a dick on wheels
How he can strut it around and park it in any space at will
Gaping holes that allows ANY four wheels
Wearing a pair of heels..
Bends to your will..
Because you can't take a what a strong woman does for you.
Am I mad?
Should I be angry that you decided to move your parking spot?
I think not.
See the thing I've noticed about you
I've noticed all the lies..
How you can't look me in the eye
And you think I was going to make this easy on you?
You must be booboo the fool.
Going to try to replace me with the secretary
I got a little news for you..
The lady you so easily went to
I got the results from the clinic she sent you too
Being nosy I opened the letter
Busted out laughing at the answer
She got you..
Welcome your new buddy..
A new life long friend
Herpes, your friend til the end
Just like you..
This cars burning too.

Shooting Star

Shooting Star

Starlight, star bright, the first star he sees tonight. Wish he may wish he might, may he have this wish tonight? Teary eyes, streaked down cheeks body sore from where fist had me. Beaten, bruised, and physically scared; he peers out the window to see a shooting star.

Starlight, star bright; the first star she sees tonight. Wish she may, wish she might, may she have this wish tonight? Up under the covers curled into a ball and eyes shut so tight; praying that he passes out and forgets her tonight. Prayers go unanswered as she hears his feet at the door and it swings open hitting the wall. Clutching her blanket with all of her might as he rips it from her and another piece of her innocence that night. Then leaves her feeling so empty. She peers out the window to see a shooting star.

Starlight, star bright; the first star they see tonight. Wish they may wish they might, may they have this wish tonight? Destructive behavior with not a care in the world had this abused little boy and girl. No one to turn to, cries went unheard so they sought refuge in the dark underworld. Smoking and drinking was getting out of hand so they step up their habit to something a little harder to make their pain go away a little longer. Pill popping and shooting up were their drugs of choice and as the indulged they heard a little voice saying “please take this pain I do not wish to feel this another day.” They drank, smoked shot up something fierce. The popped pill after pill for a high that would not let them down. With the last swig of the drink, liquid in the needle, and pill in the bottle; they looked out the window to see a shooting star and made one last wish before it was all over.

Starlight, star bright; first star they see tonight. Wish they may, wish they might, may they have this wish tonight?

Lady R © 2012

Dreamlike State

This rain is beating down on my window
Pounding on my roof
And causing feelings that's leaving tingles
Of the warmth and moisture within..
In a lonely bed I lie
Arms stretched out to where you should be
But your side is empty..

Sighing deeply, inhaling your aroma that lingers on my sheets
Mind rushes back to what forbidden activity happened
And my body starts to sweat...
Wet..
Drenching..
Body perspiring
As my imagination is unraveling
The one on one of me and you...

I find myself...
reaching between my legs but I'm trying to fight the urge..
Trying to keep my love from coming down
Because I don't have your face to drown..
What a waste of succulent juices..
What you drink from me is able to
Satisfy the sweetest of a sweet tooth..
And quench the thirstiest of thirst.

This thunder is sounding
The lighting is striking..
This rain is beating down my window
Pounding on my roof..
Causing my body to react in unladylike tactics
And the fact is.. I've been craving it..
Since I can't have you
I think about in a dream like state..

I think about how you clean your plate
Licking your fingers
It's not polite to have your elbows on the table
But for this meal you are able to do as you please
As you have both of my knees pinned back.
My body shivers..
My toes curl..
My hair is matted to my face, every strand out of place

My breath is shallow
My temperature is rising
My legs are in a spasm
My body explodes...

This rain is beating down on my window..
Pounding on my roof..
Since I can't have you..
I think of you in a dreamlike state..
Where it's more pleasurable to be asleep than awake.

Caution

Our encounter should be taken with caution
Read the signs of my body...
First sign..
Take it slow..
Travel this curves with easy
Loiter on the crevasses so delicately
Use caution..
Read the next sign ahead
No speeding..
Procrastination is the key
Using your lips and fingers so intimately
Taking your time
My body will show the signs
Use caution
As my legs are wrapped around your face
Remember to use your breathing techniques
The only thing I want to see is your eyes looking
Up at me..
Read me...
Body starts jerking
Use caution..
Dangerous when wet as my I start to leak
When your tongue grazes my pearl repeatedly
These thighs tighten
But you..you use the jaws of life to keep them open
The look in your eyes
I can read the signs...
Man at work when you push my legs so far behind
And stroke
Jackhammer
Digging deep...
Use caution..
This dam is about to explode
While our bodies collide
Orgasm
Intensification
Body gone from solidification to liquified
Use caution
Read the signs
Breathing heavily..
Sweating..sticky..sensually

Exhausted..
Reading the signs of my body

Lady R © 2013