New Life

There's nothing like new life.
Unexpected delight
Moments of nervousness
Smiles from within
A new mother hen..
Me..
Now how to explain this to the father
True enough I'm probably the same age as his daughter
An older gentlemen who swept me off my feet
Only to lead me on with lies and deceit...
A secret life he was having with me.
Wine and dined
Treated like I was his only
But left me some days feeling lonely.
Me.
On this evening I decided to share our good news
He looked at me crazy and I couldn't have this baby
Heart broken I became
Because he didn't want our child to have his last name.
Devastation set in as he told me he was a married man.
He already raised his kids
So what was I to do?
He gave me money to get rid of what was growing inside of
Me.
I couldn't believe, but I guess I should have guessed it.
No overnights
No real calls, just texts
Meeting you at different places
But none of them your home and I'm left feeling all alone.
Me.
Your answer was so definite.
There was no changing your mind
After I met up with you that day, you changed your phone line
Cut out all communication.
Like I never existed
A notch in you belt is how I'm being treated.
Me.
Forget all the time we spent together
The L word you used so frequently...
But now that I'm having your baby, there's no love for me?
I mean REALLY!?
You're no grown man, just a boy who aged too quickly.
I learned from a strong woman
That a man isn't needed, but wanted.
To teach a child both sides of life, but if I have a choice
I wouldn't want you around because you're so trif!
My focus now is me
And this new life growing inside of me.

Lady R © 2013