That's Where The Horror Lies

Tuck me in nice and tight
Read me a bedtime story
Kiss this lil girl goodnight..
Check in the closet and under the bed for monsters..
That's where the horror lies

For years you muffled my cries
Either with a pillow or you hand
Telling me it's going to be alright
This was how it's suppose to be
This was how it showed that it loved me..

First it was just a few touches
Here and there...
Then the kisses began to get longer
On my child like lips..
It's hands rubbed over my lil girl hips.

It tell me shhh no crying.
Big girls don't tell.
So I wiped my tears away.
I was a big girl, at least that's what it told me
Then it continued to love on me....

Tuck me in nice and tight
Read me a bedtime story
Kiss this lil girl goodnight...
Check in the closet and under the bed for monsters
That's where the horror lies...

As I got older..
It became bolder..
I wasn't just a lil girl anymore
As I began to develop..
It's lust for me grew and so did those late night trips to my bedroom...

By this time you think I got use to it
I was numb because you told me it was love
But other people told me that this was the wrong kind of loving.
You told me not tell because no one would believe me.
It was this adult thing and me, I was just a mere baby...

So quietly.. you continued to love on me...
I withdrew from my friends at school..
I wasn't the happy go lucky girl I use to be...
Ever since it started to love on me...
My innocence was stolen from me..

I have no more tears to cry at night
But I'm tired.. so tired of its loving each night
I had to do something. I had to stand up and fight..
I told..
And I felt free..

When I came home and say they were taking it
Away from me.
In the back of a police car it stared at me..
In the window reflection I saw something so ugly..
Something I had feared for years..

It tucked me nice and tight..
It read me a bedtime story..
It kissed this lil girl goodnight
It checked in the closet and under my bed for monsters..
That's where the horror lies...

When I was looking at the monster in my fathers eyes...

Lady R © 2013